haha...hmm... seems like a long time since the last post...well i've been busy haha....hmmm many things happen since the last post, I've got a girlfriend, went for competitions, helped her in her CIP project haha....and yea well, going to school.... Trying my best not to sleep, haha but its working, not sleeping much in class these few days.... i've done quite well for the past few test too in chemistry, physics, maths poa haha....improving now...cause o lvl nearby le...haha....hmmm dun think i can write anymore...haha well cya then
Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on11:19 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

There's always a reason why we have to move on...to say goodbye to the feelings we wanted to stay forever. For love has to set its wings free and find the right place where it should be. I cried for the time you were almost mine, I cried for the memories you've left behind. I cry for the times I thought I had you. Never take for granted the person who truly cares about you. Remember, feelings like people grow tired too, when it's neither appreciated nor returned no matter how great you thought the love is.Love comes without warnings, no flashy signs or wake up calls. It's always present, but once taken for granted, you may wake up one day only to find out, it's gone forever. Say what you want to say when you have the feeling and the chance. Tomorrow may be a day too late. Our deepest regrets may be the things we didn't do, the opportunities missed, and the things left unsaid. I love you but I can't express it because I know deep in my heart that you could never be mine. I tried to love you from afar, but I realized that it's useless, that's why I have to say I love you...Goodbye!If you think you're starting to fall for a person, don't hide your feelings cause you can never tell when true love comes. There's nothing wrong in trying....It will hurt you more knowing it's too late to get back the love you've taken for granted. Heartbreaks could last as long as you let it, would tear as deep as you allow it to...But the test is not how soon you forget, but how you were able to heal and learn. The heart hides what you can't say, but the eyes say what the heart tries to hide. It would hurt less to hear a sounding bye, than bear a stay and see in the eye that it's a lie. Whenever I watch romantic movies, witness couples kiss and make up, listen to love songs, I smile and feel good cause I know that love still works, if not for me, at least for others.Why say you're not good enough for me when what you mean is the opposite? Why say you regret leting me go when all you mean is you can't love me anymore? Why so many excuses when all you mean is goodbye? If you make a move, you risk failure, but if you never make a move, you risk letting the love of your lfe walk right on by and you hurt every single time you delay.There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. It's hard to say no when we really mean yes. It's hard to close our eyes when we really want to see. It's hard to forget when we really can't, but the hardest is to leave when we really want to stay.Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear. There's a difference between letting go and giving up. Letting go is sacrificing what was rightfully yours, giving up is foregoing what was never really yours. Let me be in your dreams every night to meet you there with my lonely nights, false hopes, shattered dreams? How can I let go on? If even in my dreams you're leaving me alone? Don't feel sorry for the right things that you did that didn't turn out right cause you learned from them, be sorry for the things you didn't do when you had a chance.When I love someone, I'll do anything for that love to last forever. When I love someone, I'll sacrifice, I'll give everything he wished for, even if he wishes for freedom. It hurts so much but that's love. Don't be surprised if one day I'll avoid you and be gone, it's not because you've done something wrong and I hate you, but because I'm afraid to love and be hurt again by somebody who can't love me back. When we fall in love, we never hoped to cry, we never wanted to get hurt, we give more than what we need, and we somehow get equal benefit but more of us end up in tears.When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure, but when you find a new love, you view the past as an experience, a teacher, a learned lesson. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost, what is important is when you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not a part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again. For you'll never know if there is someone better for you out there. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Although the hurting is still there to test you and help you grow.Once you have been hurt, you learn to appreciate love more the second time around. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called "falling in love". Because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. You cannot finsh a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime's adventure in which we are always learning, discovering, and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only, when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But another is to risk involvement. To expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to love, fall but do not stumble, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength, it should bring out the best in you. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.Loving people means giving them the freedom to choose who they want to be with and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years. You should give thanks, for you know, that those were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him/her the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to take the risk, then you're not ready to fall in love.

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on5:13 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another opens but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his/her heart. Never say good-bye if you still want to try, never give up if you still feel you can go on, never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they've' been disappointed, to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before, and to those who have the courage and faith to build trust again. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, and an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't' go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one that makes you smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that special someone. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy, and enough money to buy people gifts. Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person twice as much. A careless word may kindle strife, a cruel word may wreck a life, a timely word may level stress, a loving word may heal and bless. The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves and not twist them with our own image, otherwise, we love only the reflection for ourselves we find in them. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a heart-broken tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life well so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on11:23 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark

In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt

Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on5:10 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

TITLE: DANCE OF TERROR

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight
Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul
A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave
Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see?

TITLE:SEEK NOT MY HEART
Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on8:39 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

TITLE: Destiny

I finally found what I was looking for.
It was always by my side.
I betrayed myself,
Listened to my own self, and just lied.
Denied the greatest pleasure,
Forgot my one dream,
But now I realize what it is
That makes my sun beam.
Shine down upon my life,
Give it warmth of a golden hue,
Make the music of my heart,
That is my love for you.
I've spent hours wondering what I could do
To show you my true love.
I'm never going to be able to give you all that you deserve,
As one who's beauty cannot compare even to that of a white dove.
Your angelic qualities remain enigmatic,
A mystery to my own eye.
Why can't all the world be like you?
I wonder and I cry.
But I know that doesn't matter now.
Why start questioning fate?
All I need to realize
Is that in you I have found my true soulmate!

TITLE: QUIET
Quiet
is what I yearn for
as the echos of you ring out in my mind

Quiet
for the thought of you
brings beats to my heart
so loud
it deafens my senses

Quiet
is what I yearn for
in the deepest corners of my soul
I cannot hide from the discord you
have brought to me
when you entered the realms of my world

QUIET
is what i yearn for
but what i yearn for most of all
is for you to hear... the noise.

TITLE: I KNOW YOU'RE YOUNG

I know your young, and need to be
With your friends, and away from me
But when you are away
It always ruins my day

I know you love me and want to stay
But I'm always lost while you are away
Your friends are Important to you
So, we know you need them, too

I know I love you with all my heart
But your friends will keep us apart
That doesn't mean it's bad
It only means I'll be sad

I know when you're with me I'm complete
But, with your friends I can't compete
I don't want to get between you and them
But I need you as much if not more than them

I know you understand how I feel
And I know your friends are for real
All I need is your love and care
All I want is your life to share

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on3:53 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

the day seems slow... time seems to slow down when i'm doing nothing... it feels like over 24 hours... but at least...I have someone keeping me company... time flew by quickly then...that someone has made my day... making it shine brighter than other days...and for that i thank that special someone.


i understand what u mean... I know u do not want to hurt either of us... so i gave both of us more time... for us to understand each other... i'm willing to wait for u

Nigel PlaCes HiMsElF NeXt 2 U on5:07 PM